Tuesday bullies.

Despite being extremely tired from staying up last night to catch the Memphis vs OKC game (WOOO HOOO GO OKC!!) I had a surprisingly fun and quick day at work today.  To celebrate my great mood in the final moments before a much needed nap here are a few pictures that seriously warm my heart.

I absolutely love English bulldogs.

Ugh.  I just died of cuteness overload.

Toodles

I haven't forgotten about you, I promise! I'll be back with some good stuff soon. xo

"In evaluating people, you look for three qualities: integrity, intelligence, and energy. If you don't have the first, the other two will kill you." -- Warren Buffett

I swear I haven't forgotten about this blog!!! I've just been extra super busy with my new job.  Which... by the way... I LOVE!!  I feel so blessed to have been given this opportunity and I'm trying to make the absolute best of it.

I'd get into more details but I'm so tired.


Yesterday I said to my mom "Wow, it's so weird I haven't been attacked with allergies when I normally do around this time of year."

Today I woke up with the worst sniffles and runny nose and sneezing ALL day.


Just my luck.  I'll be back soon. xoxo

smile when it hurts most.

If I ever inherit one thing from my mother I hope it's her optimism.  She can make any bad situation "not that bad" with just a few words.  It's actually incredible.  Today she was given a lay off date of June 30th.  Her company is folding after a few years of turmoil and after the tragedy in Japan they have finally called it quits.  Instead of being depressed about it and holing herself up in her room she consoled me as I sobbed on her shoulder.  For the past 8 years her job is what has kept us afloat after my dad got sick.  This morning when she send me a text saying "lay off June 30th" even amidst my drowsiness I was unable to go back to sleep quickly instead resorting to tossing and turning and wondering and worrying about the future.  That's what I do.  I worry.  About everything and anything.  But what does she do?  She lays out her future plans.  How she plans to go back to school and perfect her English and see what comes next.

I've never been a religious person but it is so true when they say that when one door closes, another one opens.  Whether or not the big man has anything to do with it I know that it was destiny getting this job at Geico where I'll be paid a lot more money.  My mom's tired, she deserves a little bit of rest.  Even if it was unexpected.  This is only fuel to my fire to succeed.



I need to get back on my feet to make sure she can comfortably put up hers.

April showers bring May flowers.

I'm convinced Spring is never coming.
At the rate we're going it's still going to be 59 degrees on my birthday... in June.

It's pretty much lining up to be another boring weekend in my long list of boring weekends I have accumulated throughout my life.  Nothing really going besides work and watching Lost (again).  On the bright side I only have 4 more shifts until I finally bid adieu to Best Buy and start my new job at Geico.  So here I am just biding my time away waiting for my big break.

Back to the subject of Lost, I thought that rewatching the series would help me unravel some of the questions that were left unanswered.  To be honest, I think I'm more confused now than ever before. If you're reading this, do you watch Lost?  If so, what are your theories?

Car hunting.

I've been flirting with the idea of signing for a new car for a while now.  I almost made the mistake of signing for a Honda Civic a few months back and now I am SO glad that I didn't sign like I wanted to.  I was SO totally getting ripped off!!  I'm thanking my sweet stars that I didn't let my impulsiveness get the best of me and that my mom was actually with me because God knows I would've dove into that mess haha.  For a while I was OBSESSED with the Honda Civic.  All black, coupe or sedan, 2008 and up.  Seriously obsessed.  But now I've found a new obsession...

I need this white girl in my life!

The Nissan Altima in pearl white.  I've never been a white car kind of girl but DAMN, this thing is sexy.  The reason I want an Altima is because my cousin Henry has an Altima and it's literally a beautiful thing when it comes to gas mileage which is VERY important to me.  I'm now working at Geico which is a ways away from my house and I don't want to be filling up my tank 2x a week just to get to work!  I need a fuel friendly car and all arrows are pointing to this hot mama.  Although ideally I would love a coupe, the price range for a coupe is a little too far out there for my pockets.  Who would've thought something with LESS doors would cost more?!  Haha, I'm kidding but yeah.  Although I love the idea of "all black everything" I'm intrigued by the idea of a white whip.  As for interior, I'm not picky although I think a white exterior would look like sex on wheels with a cream interior.  That and I don't wanna burn my booty in the summer!!  What car do you drive?  Suggestions?

xo

Fat Bitch.

These past few days have been hilariously great.  Monday night my supervisor Lou, my coworker Ray and I decided it would be a great idea to drive down to Jersey to the grease trucks on the Rutgers campus to pick up some infamous "Fat Bitches" sandwiches.  What a great/terrible idea.  I definitely must've gained 20 lbs. just from that night alone!  If you're unfamiliar with what a Fat Bitch is it's a philly cheesesteak with mozzarella sticks, chicken fingers, french fries and ketchup all up in it.  It's like a fat girl's dream (fat girl being me) but seriously after half of this baby I felt like I was going to EXPLODE.  What a terrible idea, but at the same time it was also a great idea.  After eating fat bitches we went to Wawa!!  My favorite convenience store ever (so pissed there are none in New York) where we stocked up on some Wawa lemonade and iced tea and coffee and Now N' Laters and muffins and werewolf gummies and everything else we can fit in our little baskets.  The only thing better than that night was the next morning waking up to a delicious banana nut muffin, lemonade and a Fat Bitch in the microwave for lunch.  I love spontaneous nights.

Fat bitch!

Lou stocking up on some Wawa goodies, yum.

Amazing banana nut muffin from Wawa!

So after indulging in what could have been my most damaging meal ever I blew the dust off my Jillian Michaels' DVD and 3 lb. weights and decided to take on the 30 Day Shred Challenge.  I'll post results here and my progress throughout.  #teamworkthatassout!!!!!

New challenge.

xo

I wouldn't want to have it any other way.

I find that my memory is the most betraying thing of it all.  I go through my cycles of fighting to forget things and when I least expect it everything comes flooding back.  One of my coworkers said something interesting today when telling me about his recent break up... "No one has a nice past".  This struck out the most to me because it's so true.  No one has a past they're completely proud of.  I think I've taken so many wrong turns in my life that at times I feel helpless and alone when trying to make the right turn.  But in reality, this is the person I am and I have to accept that.  All these mistakes that I've made have made me into the person I am today and I can't say I regret much.  I regret not being smarter about situations and not following the logical path of things instead of the emotional path.

It's funny because today I sat down and asked myself why I am the way I am.  I think it has to do with a lot but I found myself cursing the fact that I was a Cancer because I am the EPITOME of a Cancer.  Seriously!  Emotional basket case.  But you know what?  Every feeling that I have is so real and so raw that I'm okay with that.  When I love, I love.  When I hate, I hate.  There's never any second guessing when it comes to my emotions lol.

So you know what?  Here's to all my feelings.  All my memories, beloved and betraying.  All my heartbreaks and tears.  Laughs and shouts.  I'm a feeler of sorts (that sounds weird) but I would rather feel everything the way I do rather than feel nothing at all.

Glowstix. Day 3.

Who knew how much fun a couple of highlighters and black lights could be?  I went to a co worker's party tonight and had a ton of fun with my girls.  I complain a lot about not having too many quality friends but the girls from my job are the absolute bomb, I adore them.  It was great seeing everyone out of work clothes and drinking and dancing and having fun.  Though the party did end really early and abrupt (1:50 AM... whatttt?!) I can say I had genuine fun.  It's been a while.

As for my day... still no gym. :( I did do some hardcore dancing on Dance Central today but I want to get to the gym soon.  I went to Bloomingdale's with Maribel today and picked up the cutest pair of Betsey Johnson earrings in the shape of red lips!!  So cute!  I love funky jewelry.

Day 2

Was anyone else's March as uneventful as mine was?  I'm glad that March is over, that just leaves us one month closer to the summer!  Today was a pretty good day.  I spent 30 minutes rolling in bed this morning unable to get out of it.  After only sleeping 4 hours your body does a crazy thing and literally traps you in the warm chains of your blanket.  Weird.  Enough said, I was late to work by a few minutes. OH and on my way to work it was raining which then turned into slush which then turned into FULL BLOWN SNOW.  Seriously!  Like a blanket of snow was falling and I felt so helpless.  Needless to say nothing stuck and by the time I left work at 3PM there wasn't a single trace of snow.  Nice trick, Mother Nature!

As for my goals I set today I completed a lot of them.  Woke up early, went to work, thrifted a little with my sister.  No, the gym didn't work out so well for me because I am so exhausted.  I did pick up an Xbox Kinect today with Dance Central so in all fairness I did put in some work on that game.  I love it so far!  I'm probably going to head to bed in a few so I can catch up on some much needed ZzZz's and hit up the gym in the AM with Ashley my sister.  For real this time.

I'm feeling good, universe.

The end to my childhood.

I had what you could probably consider a scary infatuation with the Little Mermaid. Ariel was my idol. I have pictures dating as far back as 1993 with my little grubby hands gripping a Little Mermaid coloring book. My mom tells me I used to cry for Ariel. I think that's why I love swimming so much today.

Ariel wasn't the only one I was obsessed with. I was literally obsessed with all Disney movies I remember I had this little plastic pink chair that I used to station right in front of the TV and watch movies back to back.

One of my earliest memories of my dad was his triumphant victory on Super Mario on the NES. Yes, I know this is the Super Nintendo but this system was my all time favorite.

Long Island beaches will always be a fond memory. I remember beach trips were entire day trips and we used to take enough food and drinks to feed a small militia. I miss those days.

I had an obnoxious amount of Barbies when I was younger. In fact I remember owning a gigantic Barbie doll house that I could actually hide in and it had a fold out mat with working streetlights and the inside had a bath and an elevator and working lights. It was pretty legit.

Rugrats literally taught me everything I know today.

I, like so many other little girls, was obsessed with the Spice Girls. I actually lost a friend once due to a fight on who was allowed "to be" Posh Spice. She was my absolute favorite, I never lost an argument.

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On my mind this Wednesday morning...

• Happy 12th birthday baby brother. Feels just like yesterday I'd lay you on top of me and you'd curl up and fall asleep like a little fat caterpillar. Now you're taller than me.
• I want... correction... NEED a Chow Chow puppy. They look like fat teddies.
• My hair smells soooo good.
• I need new shoes... and a new wardrobe.
• I don't know why I've been wanting a boyfriend lately. Blahhh.
• I think I'm more in love with the idea of love than I am of falling in love.
• Whatever.
• I'm still looking out west. I need to get out of New York.
• Still on auto pilot.
• Need new friends.

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